Broke.

Okay. So hitz.fm birthday invasion is happening THIS coming Friday. I dont have the passes yet. After looooong searching for it on web, hitz drive-thru cruises, and friends and all the strangers.. Energy, time, money.. Its 4 days before the party and.. Whoa, "where are my tickets?!!"

I just sent a text to hitz.fm via mobile phone. I did the sms-sending to win the passes. 4 PASSES. And it ate RM0.50 of my beloved credit. Its very hard for me to win. Okay, i know. But I just wanna see Greyson and.. Jackman and skeletor that's all? Izit so hard to gimme just at least 2, TWO, DUA, 2 passes?! After sending it, I found out the chance's like.. 1% out of millions. How stupid I was.

Im so giving up.

*sigh and double sigh*

Haih. Anyway. THERE'S STILL A CHANCE.
The spring shopping mall. Err. I bet its like.. People squeezing, shouting, fainting, crying..
Hope we meet by chance bah Greyson Chance :)

Begin again.

Hello. Im home blogging, again. Aisi, the life after pmr is.. so boring. I thought there're some programs coming up.. Something like.. Field trip to somewhere out of kuching city. But nooooooh. The trip to KL that was supposed to hold on this coming Tuesday was sooo cancelled. Cause of thousands of reason. Uggrh. Ah well, I hope I can survive thru this boring and unpredictable holiday. Ouu, btw tmr's field trip. AHA, T-shirt printing factory. YAY! Somewhere in kuch :I

So.. I have never blog about something seriously since I got over with pmr examinations. NNOWW. Its the time I act like a serious person.Well nothing much happened today. Oooh, the only thing is that I was shaking like crazy when I was walking up the church musician stage to reach the piano keyboard with a friend of mine (he plays piano on the other side). The shaking was caused by.. SHYNESS, COLDNESS and NERVOUSNESS. Okay, forget bout it. Im posting this proper blog post just to let you know me bettaar.

Here you go :)

Random things about me

1. I loveee sad songs. Err, actually not sad songs lahh, uhmm, slow songs. Yes, SLOOOW songs.
2. I always daydream when I was young. I alwaaaays wanted to be a princess. And when I grown up, I marry a prince. That was my ambition. AHA, so cute right?!
3. I love those asian english singers on youtube. People like.. Jason Chen, David Choi, blah blah blah. Because they are not angmos and they sing english songs to get them famous. Its cool!!
4. I love chocolates. Who doesnt?! Ans: alieeens.
5. I love Disney movies. Idk whai. Just.. Maybe its the princess and prince thing. Haven't get over with my dreams to be a princess.
6. Err..
7. I likkke taking photos. OMG, cameras are like my best friends. Those moments. Sad or happy or whatever natural poses. Haha, check out my insta. I know. 400++ pics. Too many but still, I CARE NO!!
8. I feel sad sometimes when I click Fb but there's no notifications.
9. I feel extremely happy when I saw your name appear on my phone. Seriously.
10. Hey, uhmm, (if youre reading this) you should go Fb online more often and you should type faster haha.
11. I loooove batman shirt and superman shirt!!
12. I play guitar. My guitar is brown in colour. And, its head is covered with glitter paint.
13. My bedrooms walls are dark purple and light purple. And yellow curtains.
14. My hippo loves me. Told ya its random.
15. Uhmmm..
16. Hi I am a girl. Fifteen. YAY.
17. Let me think.
18. Done.

"I rmb you driving to mah house in the middle of the night,

Im the one who makes you laugh, when you know you bout to cry.

I know your favourite songs and you tell me bout your dream

Think I know where you belong,

Think I know its with me..

Cant you see that Im the one who understands you, been here all along so WHY CANT YOU SEE?

You belong with me,

You belong with me."

-Taylor Swift

Dear prince, can I be your princess? :)

When there's a will, there's a way.

So I chatted with a guy thru fb messages just now. He's my friend since I was.. uhmm primary? We're from a church btw. He's asking to blog bout him just to get the hitz birthday invasion passes. Okay. Uhmm, I dunno what to post bout you. Okay, you're a good guy, tall, good-looking. But you're annoying sometimes. You play basketball. I rmb going your condo to play bball. And.. Uhmmmm, you served us pizzas during chinese new year. Erhhmmm so my aim is just getting the passes. Idk you really want starbucks arr? You wanna see me pokai? Haha.


Dont worry lah, I dont have crazy admirers so they wont kill you :P
Mission accomplished. Uhhhmm, passssses?
If you dont gimme right, I'll look like this.





Haha, no lahh siau. Im not that crazy bout it. I just wanna see greyson chance nia.
Pfft :)

The beauty of life.

Well. As I said, time passed so much faster than I expected they would. Its end of the year. Students in my school started to play poker cards, laptops.. Woah, i mean " its been a year ". Overall live has been going back on course. Hmm, Im learning and trying to see life in a different perspective.

All I have to do now is to cherish and enjoy my life. My life has been sooo beautiful and perfect. I have perfect parent, siblings  perfect home, perfect secondary school, perfect hand phones and laptops.. And so many more.. Blah blah blah. THANK YOU GOD. I mean life is so wonderful and we ALLL should appreciate it and live it to the fullest.

Although.. sometimes,we will meet some obstacles, tiny obstacles, difficulties.. That's NOT end of the world. Its not. The pain you feel after you fell down, the suffer you get after you tried or do smth you not suppose to, face it. Face the consequences. Dont try to run away. Learn from mistakes. That make us a better person. Everybody make mistakes. Mistakessss. So, you and me, all same. We are God creation, God will never ever leave us alone in the dark corner. He will help us all. He'll save us. All we have to do is to have a faithful and sincere heart, and pray.

Dont cry because of what you did. Because "life is much more than that"..

Insanity.

My form 3 days in school countdowns from 14 days. Omg time flies. Its been a looooong year. Form 3, pmr, stresses, freedom. I cant believe Im goiong Form 4 next year! Whai?!! How I wished da time will stop. How I wished da moments will stay. How.. I wished my friends didnt go away. But my those "stupid" and "irrational"wishes will NEVER EVER come true. That's the saddest thing of course. But mmm, we have to move on anyway.

Grow up, date guys, go into university, find ourselves a perfect job.

WAIT, that's too faaaar away o.o

Okay, think about now. A loong looong holiday. WHOA, its like.. 2 and a half months before school officially reopens next year, 2013. Omigod omigod omigod! That means lots of shopping, lots of time hanging out with friends and lots of money spending. Hmm.

Although I fell asleep last night, but I DID thought of smth. I thought about my young days yesterday night. The days when you saw smilesss everyday on yours or your friends' faces. The days when your teachers dont get angry so easily and suddenly. The days when your weekends were like freedom. The days when your homework was just.. colouring.

As we grow up, stresses increases, smiles fades away, tearing drops down from our faces easily. Is that what growing up means? When you started drinking coffee not milk, when you started talking about exams not powerpuff girls? Noooooo :'(

I dont wanna grow up.. I wanna leave in my little wonderland.

Haha, "winn, stop dreaming." whispered my head.

HAIIYOO :(

Buh bye my little perfect world. I have grown up now.

Stay strong, I believe in you.

Okay. Just another simple update.

So I heard that Chemistry is a tough subject? No? And I know that you didnt get the marks that youre satisfied with.. Form4 is hard. I know. Although I never experience the or I dont really know how you feel, but its a "natural process". I mean.. who never fail and who never meet problems in their lives. Haha, woah I sound like a caring mummy.

OKAY. So let me tell you a story bout a little girl :)

So this girl. She was 14 last year. She was in form2. And there's this exam season. When students started to read revise read revise. She cared bout her exams, her results and her average in her report cards. So.. here comes this sub - MATHS.

She think that this sub is very tough. Equations, algebra, fractions, areas and volumes.. Alright. Now her teacher is giving out the test papers. She prayed silently. Then, she opened her eyes and flipped her test papers. BOOOOM!! Hard questions hard questions hard questionsss. She had seen these similar questions somewhere but she just couldnt rmb. She was like.. ohmy.. Lord, please please please help me. But it didnt help. So she tried to connect all the brain cells together and tried very hard to answer the questions. But then she saw stars in front of her. Spiral-like shapes everywhere. Ngaaaw man. She was way too nervous since the time is running out.

And so the teacher said "put down your pen stop writing now."

She put down the pen. She passed up the test paper. And she broke down and cried. Everybody around was like.. "wth, are you okay?" The little girl just couldnt answer.

2 weeks later.

Her maths teacher passed down her test papers. It wrote: FAIL.

Haih. She tried so hard but.. but.. She still didnt get the passport. Sad? Her teacher shot her a sentence "cry for what? what's over, its over. try harder next time lo. there's no use for you to cry." That was the first semester test. So from that day onwards, she tried extremely hard. She did all the exercises, ask her teacher and friends questions she didnt know. She worked really really really really hard.

3 months later.

Her maths teacher passed down her test papers. It wrote: MERIT.

She smiled a little.

But she thought that MERIT is so not enuf. So she tried even harder for the third semester.

Another 3 months.

Her maths teacher passed down her test papers. It happily wrote: HIGH DISTINCTION.

WOAH.

She broke into tears again. She did it. Although from FAIL to HIGH DISTINCTION is a very tough job..

But she did it.

SO,

Just wanna say smth to my friend.

Don't do anything permanently stupid because you're temporarily upset.

Nothing is impossible. The word itself says " I'm possible".

Hey, try harder next time. Its the one and only thing you can do. Stop feeling sad and calling yourself stupid because you failed the subject. Do you know that you're not alone? Think positively. Im sure that you can do it. No matter how hard that sub is, as long as you have the heart to study and heart to achieve success, then you will reach your target. Believe in yourself! I believe in you. Your family believe in you. Your friends believe in you. My bunny believes in you. My tortoise believes in you too. SO YOU SHOULD TOO.

"Whatever you ask for in prayer with faith, you will receive."

 -Mat 21:22

Do you know who's the little girl? :)

Breathing.

Im home. After uploading the last blog post 34789102384629103 millions seconds ago, I just wanted to drop by and say that Im still alive. I know. The boooooring days where you're home alone with laptops and useless mobile phone, Im actually aliveee. Sweet. So yeah. Today's MONDAY. Whole new week.





What am I suppose to do huh. BLOG BLOG BLOOOOG? ;(

So I heard hitz.fm this morn. And I heard this Invincible song by Machine Gun Kelly (its a weird name o.o). Its awesome! Super duple awesome. Best song of the week aha.

I hear voices in the air, I hear them loud and clear. Telling me to listen.
Whispers in my ear, nothing can compare. I just wanna listen.
Telling me I'm invincible.




HAHAHA.



Okay,
Tell you bloggers something bout me :)

Im not AFRAID to live a boring life.
Ya know why?
Cause some smart and bored people created these social website and music websites.


Example :

1. Twitter
2. Blogger
3. Facebook
4. Instagram
5. Youtube
6. We heart it
7. Ultimate guitar
8. Life.soap.bubble


LOOOOOOL. Okay, its getting reaaaally boring. OhMyGurd!! x.x

You know its you.

Dear you,

Upon request, here you go. You're funny, sweet, cute, crazy, unpredictable and just plain outright mad. Ouu and a jerk sometimes, sorry to say that. But I kinda like that. HAHA. Okay, I really dont know what to write about. Hmmmmm, you're fun to text with.  I really enjoyed texting you. You made me laugh when Im sad or dull. And made me laughed at the most unexpected times :) You have the most amazing "texting" way. Im jealous. Im jelly. Im AGAR-AGAAARR. Muahaha.


When I first met you, I thought that you're some kind of cool and ignore-people guy. I got to know you a little more, and you're actually an emo and guai kid. Then when I got to know you even more, you're actually a very shy and sweet guy :)


I cant find the bar of chocolate you sent to me thru viber. (Im sorry i think i deleted it) So I got you this.
I searched : Chocolate bars and this pic popped out. So I think : yeah, copy paste. Haha. Its not even related so i think the website is crazy. But anyway. It popped out at the right time. Do you freakinggg rmb that you're suppose to chia some candies and sweets?!! Hahaha, I want everything there! Hehe, NO LAHH IM NOT SIAU. But erhhemm you can chia me the things in the pic below the pic below these texts.










THIS. (ouuuch it looks expensive*)

Haha, no worries. Our school sells haha. 1.5 bucks nyaa ;)
Of course not mint with chocolate chips lahh but vanilla will do :D
Must, chia me ice cream someday! OR I'LL KICKYOURBUTT :)
But if I dont want it some particular days you cant force me because you have to respect my decision not to eat strangers food haha. I have my rights >:)




OKAY,

That's all for now and I think thats longggg enuf.
I said i got nothing to post about but I ended up posting several things. Im  going crazy :I
Haha, and hey, if youre free, DO POST SMTH BOUT ME IN YOUR LONG DESERTED BLOG!!
Nyehehe, k thx buhh bye! :)

Proximity.

Things to do today.
1. Text
2. Watch my Singaporean drama
3. Laugh, smile, go crazy
4. Move on.
5. Eat junk fooooods.
6. Repeat everything #1000x

WHY AM I DOING IT OVER AND OVER AGAIN?
IS THAT WHAT A FREEDOMED PERSON SUPPOSE TO DO? :/
NOTHING BUT THOSE..?







I wanna read novels (especially private) but I've finished it.
MUAHAHA ==





So I think its going to be really awesome if we friends go beach someday.
UHHH. Walks on the beach, playing volleyballs, eat pizzas, swimming in the sea..
But it'll never happen?

Teenagers like us, 15 years old.
Go DAMAI beach.With a bunch of crazziiieers.
In a country called Malaysia?!




WHATSOEVER. *cross my fingers (wishing some lucks come to me)
Haha, WHAT DOESNT KILL YOU MAKES YOU STRONGER ;)
So yeah, I believe that soooomeday i'll go high at beach and get crazy hehe.



Taylor swift's new song : I knew you were trouble.

I knew you were trouble when you walked in.
So shame on me now.
Flew me to  places Ive never been.
Till you put me down..



BBTTW, I think shes crazy. She wrote so maaaany new songs suddenly.
Not sentimental, but break up songs. WHOA.
Taylor's changing to Miss Rock&Roll.
Aiant a good thing o.o









BUT WHO CARES?!
Pmr's over :)

Vengeance.

You are NOT fixing the situation. I dont know why suddenly my blog feels much more personal.



Uhm. So yeah, 2nd schoolless day after pmr. I heard that today's the last day for the form5s. Whoa, I cant imagine my last day in Lodge. Idk, i'll cry? Tease my friends? Take phooootos? Uhm, forget bout it.


RIGHT. So last night was horrible. People who are suppose to reply my texts didnt pleased me. Uggrh. You will never know the feeeeelings, crumpled feelings in your heart. When you just gotten ignored by your friends, stupid laggy internet, horrible notications, spamming fb texts..

And last night I just got acknowledged that Im having piano lessons back. And the holy one month with no piano, my teacher's going to do the replacements! Ohmy. I know I have lot of time to do the practice and uhh whatever scales major minor harmonic melodic but I JUST WANNA ENJOY MY LOVELY HOLIDAY! Thats all, thats all.

That feeling you get when you try so hard but you just cant get it right.

Holycrap I never knew this will happen. I mean not really stressed out like that crazy one lah. But why malaysia not like angmos countries? Their summer backpack holidays, shopping and walk around the town..



Later, spring mbo movie. With some of my best friends. I SHALL ENJOYYY. I should go and buy a jumper. I will try my very very best to search for one. I hope I can smell them from faaar. HAHAHAHA (wth).





OKAY. SO BORING.




Uhmm.. okay I should stop complaining. My life is so good now. Air cons, laptops, iphones, big screen tv, awesome bedroooom. Even piano lessons. Compare to those Africans kids. Haha, thank God.


Er, so Im going school later to return library books. Cough. I actually went into library that Wednesday and borrowed chemistry, physics and history. Im not KIASUU okay. Its just because the seniors are scaring me. *sobs. They said the subs very very hard and its like if you dont pay attention youll get lost and fail your exams. OMG. Uhmm.. For my own good, read. Haha. Im crazy. I cant believe Im doing this. READ REFERENCE BOOK. Enjoy reading books. Buahaha.




Abit sad lahhh.

But babe there you go again, there you go again making me love you,

Yeah I stopped using my head, using my head let it all go,

Got you stuck on my body, on my body like a tattoo,

And now Im feeling stupid, feeling stupid pounding back to you.

-One more night, Maroon 5

Please.

Im thinking of smth.. A WONDERFUL STORY.

WHOOOOTS, MY HEART'S FIRE CRACKERING.




Uhm. So yeah. I admit that I dream bout prince and wonderful endings and all that o.o
Its such prettyyy to just think bout it. Seriously, trust me. Some people in my class do that too. esp after pmr. And theyres really serious matter. Hahahaha. They even thought bout the wedding setting and the bridge's dress like. Omg. Why the heck teens think bout marriage  HAHA THEY ARE SUPPOSE TO THINK OF LOVE LOVE LOVE STORY :)


But it'll not happen to me so soon. Maybe 3 years later? Omg. That's so long. Yes I dont have a bf and I text -dunno-who- ..


BUT. Everybody has a person they like, they love, they wanna be with. AM I RIGHT? Apparently. They think bout them all the time hehe. Its perfect and its one of the wishes-to-be-come-trueee. So of course I have somebody too. Haha. I wont shout and tell the whole world who. Siau Im not crazy. But I'll pray that he wont leave me someday. Hmm like.. Date other girls :/ haha. Amen? :)

Absolutely positive thinking.

So, day after pmr. And 3 days to Glenn's party.

I DUNNO WHAT TO BUY FOR HIS PRESENT.
I DUNNO WHERE TO BUY.
I DUNNO WHAT TO WEAR.
I DUNNO ..
I DUNNO..
DUNNO DUNNO DUNNNNNOOOO.

But i know A thing. I'll go Red Earth (Glenn's party) and eat the steamboat buffet whatever crap there like heaven. Haha Im sorry friend but them I AM SUPPOSE TO ENJOYYY!! :)



LIKE THAT. Wait that's too little ;) hehehe.

Amazement no.

Hey. So, just came back from home-sweet-home school. Its was.. UGH. But at least I did smth this rainy morn. So the other forms (except for form3) are still having exams.



I SO DESERVED THIS HOLIDAY.



Maybe not? It so boring..
Oh my. Text, blog, guitar? Haiz.

So I went school this morn for the post pmr program briefing. It was.. Uhm idk, awesome? No. Mr lim gave us a post pmr program list. Consists of various kind of activities. And GUESS WHAT? We were suppose to go KUALA LUMPUR for field trip. BUT AHERM, NO. We are so happy that we're going KING'S ICE CREAM FACTORY, T-SHIRT PRINTING FACTORY and BOOOOOOMBA. Yay?



GAH. Forget bout that.

Students also received their students card today! Yay. It looks smth like.. THIS. Hehe thats my face. When I was form2..

IDK WHAT TO DO TODAY. Its so freaking boring..
I cant find any jumper too. I want it so badly :(
Haiyo. Nvm, holiday's still looooooong.
HAHAHA.

I survived.

PMR ended just now. Just, just now. Nyehehe. Other forms in school are having their final exam. Omg hahaa goooooooood! This feels so damn good. Erhm erhm. WHO ARE YOU? Are you in touch with all your darkest fantasies? Have you created a life yourself where you can experience them? I have. I am a freaking crazy. BUT I AM FREE.


Earphones, iPhones!



Hot chocolate!





I enjoy, I smile, I laugh, I go CRAZY!! :)

Went shopping just now. I saw the batman shirt.. But.. Not my size. SO SAD :(
But uuh.

Nail polish, anklet, british purse, necklace.. BUAHAHA.
That's enough.

SHOPPING is so fun :)

My life just got very very interesting.

Hi. So honestly I got a perfect reason why am I here blogging. You know why? CAUSE PMR EXAMINATION IS SOOO OVER!! This feelings so good. Which means.. PARTY.

Omg. Its been 2 months since last blog post.

But hi bloggers Im back! Miss me??! :)

Well. Pmr's over. Fresh start. New beginning. Nyehehe ;)

I received sooo many greetings and luckings before pmr.

THANKS PEOPLE.

So here's my after-pmr-plan.

1. Text. ( OWW YEAH. )

2. Sleep?

3. Make cards for teacher?

4. Go shopping mall and find batman and superman jumper!!

5. Omg, dance like crazy.

6. Party, Glenn's throwing one :)

7. JAM! ( Mart, Chard, Mel.. )

8. Uhm..

9. Piano? Omg, nahh.

10. BLOG!

11. Laugh like siau-ers.

12. Deep talks.

13. Singapore!!

14. Happy tears.

15. Dream bout my future :*

16. Superman.

17.Be a cam whore.

18. Ah lien. Uhhrgh. Maybe not. Haha!

19. Do stupid stuff.

20. FREEEEDOM.

21. Walk on beach with friends <3

Guess that's enuf? Haha.